Dear Terrel,

You and I are in different worlds. You have a life of your own. I don't even think that I was ever a part of that world of yours.

Your mother means well when it comes to you. When she's around others she's so sweet looking, so proud, so motherly and so caring. But I know you know better. She was extremely cruel to me, and she looks down on me because I am poor.

I don't want to be with you for money, I don't care about money. I've always liked you for you. I really hope you know that.


To be honest, when your mother started being cruel towards me, I hadn't even thought about looking at you that way. But during this last month things have changed. I am seeing you in a different light. I have no idea why I haven't seen you like this before since you've always been in front of me, and we've known each other for so long. Maybe I'm just an idiot, I don't know.


I love the way you make me laugh, I love your cheeky smile, but most of all I love you whole. There is absolutely nothing I would change about you. Your bad habits, your flaws, I would take it all.

Although my eyes are upon you, yours I believe are not lying on me. You've got your sights far higher than mine, far beyond what I can achieve, and I'm happy for you. I want you to do your best, I want you to complete all your goals, and I want you to be the greatest in everything you do. All in all, I just want you to be happy.


I won't lie. I am happy to see you leave, but in a different perspective. I have to stop thinking about you, and I have to start thinking about myself. Whenever you're around I can't think properly, and I can't concentrate. But now that you're leaving, I can finally start a life of my own without you. Living without you will be tough though, I can admit that.


Do you remember that time we got locked out of that building we were having school camp at, and we had to sleep outside? I will never forget that. It was quite funny, especially when you said you needed a blanket and used a pile of autumn leaves instead! Then that night we fell asleep together under the stars. I even remember pointing out that constellation Orion to you, and you said it looked like a duck. To this day when I look towards the sky at Orion, I still wonder how you ever saw a duck.

That moment with you, I will cherish the most.


Please don't forget me. If there's anything I could ask for, it would be for a place in your memory. I won't be selfish and ask for a place in your heart, although if you do have one in there for me I'll gladly take it.



Have a safe flight and take care. I will miss you, and I hope that no matter where you are and what you do, your dreams will soar.



Goodbye Terrel,


Lia.

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It's been a while since I last wrote anything exclusive or long in particular. But I'm going to try write again. I can't lie, I have been writing, except nothing fictional or prose.

I'm not quite sure about the colour of this layout, but I'd like to keep to a different theme. I like pink, but not that much. I needed a colour that suited, & also keep to the similarities of my other two journals lilithiaseven which is my main journal, & lilithiaeight which is for my restaurant reviews.

For the banner image if you're curious, I did take the photo, it's quite old as well you can view the photo here if you would like to see the full version.

I'm quite nervous about this blog, but hopefully things will hit it off!!